I have almost completed applying to North Park University and have spent $57.50 doing so. I think fees for applying to a university are a scam, but I'm a sucker just like the rest of educated America and will pay it because my desire to go to school far out weighs the sinking feeling of a lighter pocket. I'm hoping this works out. I have virtually no money for tuition, and am praying with all I've got for a good financial aid package and a decent part time job. I'm trusting God for the rest, which is incredibly scary but I know He provides and is more than able. I've applied at a lot of different colleges and never has the application process gone as smoothly as this one has. I'm taking that as a good sign. ;) Even though my decision to go to college was wild and last minute, and I mean LAST MINUTE, things seem to be coming together rather nicely. Perhaps I'm finally making a good decision for myself. I guess thats what happens when you step out in faith. Of course, I'm leaving room for my plans to fall through. After all, God does say no. I've experienced running into that wall a couple times. Whatever happens, things will work out. Which is my biggest comfort when it comes to foreboding fears of making a total disaster with your life. Yes, I'm capable of complete disaster. Scary thought right? Anyway, I really want to live the life I love. And I'm okay with making a few mistakes in the process of getting there. The reason why I decided to apply after all was because I ran into someone that is just as discontent at sitting around in Rockford as I am. He had an influence and I realized... there's no reason for my sitting. I'm not responsible for my family and they haven't claimed responsibility over me for a long time now, so why am hanging out? My thoughts exactly. I want to be free to live life. Free to make mistakes. Free to meet and love all kinds of different people. Perhaps that's why I love the city. Although, Chicago does seem quite small to me since I've spent so much time there now... but maybe New York City is in my not too distant future. hmm...
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